Hello!
I’ve always had a website for my showreel and portfolio, but never blogged. I’m generally pretty quiet in real life, and that’s extended to the internet. My last Instagram post was from almost a year ago. I haven’t made a YouTube video for myself in years. I’m part of the 90% who sit back and watch in silence.
I don’t necessarily think that's a bad thing, but lately I’ve been journaling more, and it’s made me realise I do have things to say. There’s always a lot going on in my head. Too much sometimes, and I find it hard to get it out. A few months ago I started reading The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron, and to be honest, I didn't keep up with the 12-week program, or complete many of the tasks at all. But I did experiment with morning pages. Three pages, stream of consciousness, first thing every morning.
I enjoyed the process of writing. I got a nice notebook and my first fountain pen (not at all necessary – I just can't help myself). It felt good to write, even if what I was writing was a load of rubbish. I kept it up for a few months, but wasn’t really sure it was doing anything for me. Maybe my head felt a little clearer when I started work for the day, but nothing life-changing. After a few months I fell off.
Looking back though, that’s what got me into writing more. I’ve been journaling and taking more notes, both on paper and in Obsidian. I've never been much of a note-taker, let alone a writer, but I found myself wanting to write. Needing to write.
I realised that basically my whole life, I’ve been getting in my own way. Keeping thoughts in my head. Photos on my computer. Footage clogging up my hard drives. Some of it out of pure laziness for sure, but I think the real reason is that I’ve been too scared to share.
Yesterday morning I woke up and decided to give the morning pages another go. For whatever reason, I felt like writing about how I’m learning Chinese. I don't know why, but that’s what ended up on the three pages. I’d basically written a blog post. A bad blog post, but something that might be worth sharing.
So here we are. I’m in the process of setting up my blog here on Bear, and I’m excited to get started. Stay tuned for that post on Chinese soon I guess!